Did I mention, I've been reflecting?
Where did I go wrong? I trained my ass off during the early part of the season. Did I burn myself out? I dialed back the intensity and upped the volume at the appropriate times. Did I not run enough? Is it coached versus self-coached? What?
I came off the run at Eagleman, never wanting to do another 70.3. I asked Dee Dee if I could cancel my Ironman. Never make decisions in the aftermath of battle when emotions run the full spectrum. After I changed up the layout on my blog, and I looked at that picture that is now my header, I smiled, and my heart filled with pride, and the love I have for what I do is still strong, and all was right with the world.
Yet, the questions remain.
After much thought, the answers to my questions lie along the path of starting over, re-inventing who I am as a triathlete. I am going to focus on the basics of nutrition, swimming, cycling, and running, and rebuild my skillset from the ground up.
To begin the process, I changed my diet. I have reduced my calories and cut out my snacks, except on days where I'm absolutely starving. I even totally gave up alcohol. This lasted for about two weeks before I began to have headaches and run fevers in the evening, like I did this past weekend. After a six-pack of Sam Adams, I've been fine. I have no idea what it is in those bottles that my body is craving, but I have to figure it out. I don't like being controlled. My weight has dropped into the high 180s, so I am making progress, but 22% body fat is a lot to carry around, and there is plenty of wiggle room.
Normally, I would have taken today off, but since I am in a transitory phase, I have been pretty much just doing what I want. I ran last Thursday, did an open water swim Saturday, and played soccer with my son all day Sunday. Boy were my legs tired. I went to the pool today to do nothing but stroke work. I spent 35 minutes swimming slower than I ever have before. It was a cathartic experience. I wrapped up the session with a round of swim golf. I swam 50 yards in 49 seconds and then 45 seconds, with 28 and 26 strokes respectively. I must be doing something right. I mean, swimming 50 yards in 45 seconds with 26 strokes is pretty damn good, I guess.
Tomorrow, I run.
It takes fives years to build a strong runner. -- Bobby McGee
That's good to know. I have two more years :-D
Next week, I start taking this shiznit serz :-)